It’s a Picture Now

Dear Diary,
I’ve missed you. I have to get into writing more often, because I have soooo much going on, and I just need to get the words out. I don’t really have anyone to talk to about everything, this is not a complaint, it’s just a fact. No biggie. Writing my words out helps a lot, and is sometimes better than talking it out, but I just don’t have the time as much as I want to.

Ok, so let me tell you, gaaaahhh!!! I’ve never been happier, to sum it all up. Let me gush about my daughter for a second, she passed all of her classes with As and Bs. I can’t believe she’s about to graduate. She also joined the color guard and had a few big performances recently, so I’m seeing her come out of her shell. It’s awesome.

Also, for the first time in my life, I can see the direction I want to go in. Like, I can see my future, or what I want my future to look like, and it’s attainable. I can see all the steps I need to take to get there. I can see the picture more clearly, rather than just blobs of paint splattered everywhere.

Over 2 years ago, I made the choice to live the life that I wanted, and I have no regrets. I wish more people would be more adventurous, and less fearful or concerned about what other people think about what they’re doing. It’s so freeing to not give a fuck.

Alright, anyway, I was supposed to spill the beans on some things going on, but I have to run to my storage and pick up my daughter for our dentist appointments.
I’ll fill you in on the next one!!


  1. I can relate to many of your thoughts. The story about re learning to communicate because you past partner would shut you down. Been there, even though I had great self esteem before my ex, it seemed he was able to, try to make me feel like i was small.. like didn’t give a crap what I thought. He refused to learn, get therapy how to stop being a dick, that was toxic and no future for us since he could not learn and grow. People! I too want to be a comedian. I want to find a comic partner and write a duo act. Want to work together? Maybe can try a video skit of some sort via zoom. Im not bad at editing. Not good either. I traveled lived out of my car 2017, 18, 19.

  2. Wow, just wow!!! Seriously Pursue a writing career or do it for fun. Your a amazing writer! I’m just happy to be along as your audience in life and your pursuit of happiness.

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